Marrow Donor....

Just got a call and email about being a possible marrow/blood cell donor match for someone! Just gotta go through a few more tests to narrow down whether I actually am a match.

This is very exciting!  Of course I may not actually be a match-this was just a preliminary match from their huge database of donors.

But it’s still exciting to think I may be able to help someone in such a way.

Marriage Fears

When I think about my future-certain parts of it scare me so much.  Not the job part, and not technically the marriage part.

What I am so afraid of is being married and then 1) Getting a divorce 2) Finding out about an affair 3) Ending up in an abusive relationship.

These things scare me so much that it literally hurts my heart to think about what I would do if they ever happened to me.

I get a little panicky when I think about these things happening to me.

And it's not like I'm expecting perfection, not at all.

I just...want a marriage for life - I want someone to grow old with. I want someone who I can help and will help me through the ups and downs of life.  And will stay faithfully by my side through it all.

Because to me, cheating and abuse are totally unthinkable...very much deal-breakers.  I'm not sure what I should do/can do about this "paralyzing" fear. The only thing I can think of is prayer.

I also just got this neat book/journal for Christmas.  It's called God's Promises for a Woman's Heart.  So far I've only taken a few peeks, but I do look forward to really diving in heart first.

My Bucket List

Bucket List

1) Send a message in a bottle

2) Get a tattoo

3) Swim with dolphins

4) Take a vacation alone

5) See an Egyptian pyramid up close

6) Go on a road trip

7) Help build a house for someone less fortunate

8) See a show on Broadway

9) Go whitewater rafting

10) Ride in a hot air balloon

11) Go hang gliding

12) Graduate from college

13) Go on a cruise

14) Safe a life

15) Swim with sharks

16) Go on an African safari

17) Spend the night in a haunted house

18) Take a vow of silence for a day

19) Scuba dive

20) Take a long trip by bus or train

21) Take a walk in the rain

22) Have a photo published

23) Get married

24) Become a parent

25) Visit all 50 states

26) Participate in La Tomatina

27) Fire a pistol

28) Cherry Blossom Festival-Washington D.C.

29) Give something away-if someone compliments something of mine, give it away

30) Quit drinking alcohol

31) Quit drinking soda

32) Lose 10 pounds

33) Lose 20 pounds

34) Lose 30 pounds

35) Lose 40 pounds

36) Lose 50 pounds

37) Lose 60 pounds

38) Lose 70 pounds

39) Lose 80 pounds

40) Create a hope chest

41) Get CPR certified

42) Run a 5K

44) Plant a tree and watch it grow

45) Learn to snowboard.

46) Go kayaking.

47) Go cliff jumping.

48) Do a Polar Plunge for charity.

49) Go on a canopy tour (zip-lining).

50) Try vegetarianism.

51) See the Statue of Liberty.

52) Visit the Vegas Strip.

53) Make a quilt.

54) Visit Harry Potter World.

55) Make a list of 100 books I want to read.

56) Read every novel that has won a Pulitzer Prize in the Fiction category.

57) Watch every movie that has won an Academy Award for Best Picture.

58) Host a foreign exchange student.

59) Become a foster parent.

60) Read the Bible in full.

61) Learn to meditate.

62) Register to be an organ donor.

63) Register to be a bone marrow donor.

64) ….